Sorry Mommy is a Slacker

Dear Preeti,

I'm sorry I basically neglected your blog for all of 2010. I hope I loved you lots and lots to make up for it. I love you more than anything, you *do* know that, right?

Today I lost my temper with you over something completely idiotic. I was giving you a shower and noticed that the shampoo bottle -- the shampoo bottle that had only been opened last week -- was completely empty. I'm pretty sure you used the contents to fuel some bizarre "cooking experiment" (you like to talk to yourself and make up recipes while you're in the shower. I think I must have the Cooking Channel on way too much when you're awake). I yelled and yelled. I lectured. I took a bunch of toys out of the bathtub. You cried and cried...so much so that you were doing that hiccupping thing that happens when you cry so hard you lose your breath.

I had to step out of the bathroom to cool down - your dad took over with getting you ready for bed and drying your hair. And then I thought - Will this matter so much in a week? A month? A year? And I felt horrible.

After you were ready for bed you came out to the living room and I told you I was sorry I yelled at you. You came over to me, hugged me and climbed into my lap for a cuddle and my heart just melted. You were so sweet and I had just been so horrible! Then you started to kiss me and tell me you loved me and I almost lost it. Such trust and love from my sweet girl!

I love you, Pappu!